About The Madre Diaries

How I got started.....

My name is Jasmine and I'm 30 ish .(officially in my 30's , yikes!). I live in San Diego California , and have lived here all my life. I am newly married to my soulmate and best friend. I am a mother to a handsome boy named Max.... 
Before my son was born I worked 60 hours a day 5 days a week. I took pride in the money I made and being independent. My plan after my son was born was to take my maternity leave and head back to work after. Lets just say Gods plans were different than mine. My son had feeding issues the required more attention. With weekly therapy sessions, and frequent visits with specialist I had to extended my maternity leave until it was exhausted. I had no other choice but to become a stay at home mom.  For someone who was never home and financially independent, this was a big adjustment . I quickly found out being a stay at home mom wasn't as easy and laid back as I thought I would be. I faced new challenges, I felt less of a person ,like I wasn't contributing to my little family. On top of that I felt like I was failing as a mother. With Max's medical issues , I blamed myself like some how my body failed him I'm while he was in my tummy. And of course I delt with normal pressures of mommy hood. Dealing with the pressure of being the perfect mommy. Listing to unsolicited advice from everyone you know. Feeling the guilt from elders for not falling into the "Mexican mom stereotype". It was definitely a lot to take in, and I am still learning every day. Even though motherhood is crazy at times its the most rewarding. I soon realized that even though my plans changed I am still very blessed. Most importantly my son is here and alive. He may not be where he should be , but he's getting there (at his own pace).  I may not be able to go back to work in the corporate world, but this has opened up so many other opportunities.I am so thankful for the Madre Diaries. Its shown me that even though we get handed tough cards in our life we can still rise and make something of it . Because of this I get to stay home with my son and raise him and watch him grow. Being able to see that little boy smile , or hearing him laugh makes life just perfect. Becoming a mom gave me a purpose. I finally figures out where I'm suppose to be .... Right here with my son.